Complete with suffering

I am complete with suffering.

Have you ever been in the presence of someone who does the impossible?

Someone who achieves at such high levels but there is always a blockbuster sized story to go along with it?

Like literally the shit that they had to overcome and go through sounds like it came out of a movie script.

But of course, no matter what, they fought their way out of an insurmountable challenge and saved the day.

Because they are always their own heroine/ hero.

And they are also their own villain.

I was that woman.

The woman who prided herself on all that she’s accomplished, as she should, but I was also addicted to hard.

Because I am a high performer, most things come pretty easy to me without much effort.

My 10% is like the average persons 150%

A blessing and a curse for those of us who have been gifted this unfair advantage.

So to spice things up...

to add a little more pizazz...

to amp up the WOW factor, I consciously and subconsciously made things a lot harder for myself.

I mean, everyone loves a good struggle story right??

But what I didn’t realize until a few years ago was the fact that I was addicted to suffering.

My system needed it.

It was like a dopamine hit.

Making things ridiculously challenging and hard...

Stuffing myself into a corner so that I could fight my way out gun blazing and live to tell yet another OMGGGGGGGGG story.

The truth is, I had to make success harder then necessary.

I had to suffer, because then and only then would I be worthy of something so good.

I believed I was only deserving of the things that were really hard to achieve.

Women like me don’t get things easy, right?

It was only about two year ago that I decided to release the need for hard.

Release the if I suffer first, then I can have good things.

I AM COMPLETE WITH SUFFERING.

This is a Pattern that I have not only witnessed in myself but also seen in my private 1:1 high performance coaching clients.

Not matter how phenomenal you are...

How much money you make...

How much impact you have...

There is this need...

This desire...

This obsession to make things a little more difficult then necessary.

To suffer a little bit more.

To add that extra mile to the end of a marathon because then and only then are you deserving.

It’s a nasty little kink that high performers have and it largely goes unnoticed.

Because most with say it just the Universe testing you.

Or Shit happens.

But if the shit is happening too often, then you may want to take a deeper look and realize it’s not the universe, it’s you.

What would it take for you to be complete with suffering?

Who would you have to be in order to allow yourself to simply succeed?

If you fully accepted your unfair advantage, that things have always been easier for you, then what???